My Dearest Braedwyn,
It's almost your 7th birthday, or should be on this earthly plane. I wonder what you'd be into. What toys would be on your list? What cake would I be making this year? Would frosting still be the best part to you? Would you like David Bowie by now? (Not that I at all knock your cool, ecclectic taste in music).
Your birthday is coming up and it usually means the onset of a deeper depression for me and your Daddy...more
ThoughtsToo cool 4 school
Braedwyn would be getting ready for his first year of school in September. Braedwyn would be doing lots of things. But who knows what he's doing now?
I can't stand how much I miss him and long for him, yet I have no choice but to stand it.
I hate waking up to not being with my children, but I continue to wake up...more
I long for you so much.
I love you so much.
I miss you so much.
I think of you so much...more
Thinking about Braedwyn on our second Christmas without him. I am sure he would totally embody the xmas spirit. Merry Chistmas, Honey....more
Info → TechnicalGallery Back
After a long time down, I have added a new gallery program and started uploading pix to it.
To see the gallery just click on the link above.
If you have photos you want to upload you will need to create a login. The login from the main site does not apply to the gallery...more
This Wednesday 52 weeks ago today our boy, Braedwyn, left us. Where did he go? And where is he now?
I have longed to see, smell, touch, and be with Braedwyn every single moment of the last 52 weeks. That longing has kept him close to me, but from a distance because I actually cannot experience those things.
I wait patiently for a visit from him...more
ThoughtsAlmost a Year since You Left
It is coming up on a year since Braedwyn died. It seems like an eternity and like yesterday. I can't write of "moving on" or "things getting better" because there is huge chasm in my heart and soul and between my arms.
I have attempted to get used to life without him here...more
ThoughtsAll Tomorrow's Parties
Braedwyn's fourth Birthday has come and gone. Yesterday, June 6th, Nicole and I had a remembrance cake, made wishes and blew out some candles. We really couldn't bring ourselves to be celebrating the day, but maybe some time in the future when this day rolls around, we shall be able to truly celebrate our little man.
We both had to work for the earlier part of the day and the latter part was spent in tears, photos and tunes: the three interwoven in a melancholy tapestry...more
Info → TechnicalWebsite Back Up
The website is back online.
The server that it was hosted on was shared and the person whose name it was in cancelled it before I was able to download everything off the server. So, I have been madly at work getting all my sites back up and running.
The gallery is lost...more
InspiredA Poem for Braedwyn from Montserrat
This was written by a friend of mine from my Paris days. She sent it to Braedwyn a few days after he died.
Where are you now voyager?
Blown from earth by the mouth of Volcanoes,
you flew by ancient wind paths traveled by birds of all species.
When they saw one so little, they nestled your small body
under their wings with grace,
feathers so warm, like a blanket of Mommy and Daddy...